Being the Trinity College Chapel’s verger has been the greatest privilege of my time at college. The position has taught me leadership, adaptability, and above all has strengthened my relationship with God. I initially applied for the role as a way to more deeply connect with my faith, and it has allowed for that so and much more. Over the course of my work at the Chapel, I have deepened my faith more than I thought was possible. I feel more confident in my place in the Episcopal Church, especially as a gay and transgender man. I have also forged several friendships that are deeply important to me. The guild of acolytes began as only myself three semesters ago, and now there are six of us. I have enjoyed every moment working with this wonderful group and feel proud to call myself their leader.
As verger, I have learned the importance of cultivating a space. The Chapel itself feels to me like a dear friend, and it is my honor to help take care of it. Polishing candlesticks and ironing linens is an act of prayer for me. Not only do I help create a space physically, but also spiritually. From Lessons and Carols, to Easter, to baptisms, I have participated in a number of major services. Even a regular Sunday, however, is special to me. Each week is a new opportunity to engage with the Trinity community and with God. If I played even a small role in fostering a moment of peace and connection, then I consider my job to have been a success.
I recognize that I am a reflection of spiritual life at Trinity, and if I want everyone to be welcome into spirituality, then I must be welcoming towards everyone. I have even had students come up to me and say that, to them, I am the Chapel. This is a very flattering but also (pleasantly) burdensome sentiment. Regardless of the truth that I am only a small part of what keeps religious life at Trinity going, if I am seen as its representative, I have to take that responsibility seriously.
The main role of a verger is literally to lead people, but at the same time, I am often silent. I am not a preacher, and I rarely even do readings. I sometimes jokingly explain my role to people as that I simply “carry a stick.” However, I have learned through my time as a verger that leadership is not about who can speak the loudest or who can gain the most control, but it is about humility. I, as all leaders ought to, exist to serve others. This means that everyone can be a leader in their own way, as we are all called to serve God through our devotion to our universal brothers, sisters, and siblings.
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